This from Warren Ellis, is magnificent.
"You discover, later, that you’re not good enough, or not lucky enough, or not present enough, and you made too many important decisions on the fly because you were too busy or too scattered or too tired, and that you’re never going to be that person who writes one of those inspirational blog posts about success. You’re in your 40s and you’re still standing on the shore, keeping a wary eye on the riptide, because you know that all the small things you’ve built could be swept away overnight."
I used to think there'd be a moment where it would all snap into place, where you'd feel like you knew what you were doing. But it never comes. Because as soon as something feels doable I assume that means it's old hat. There's always a new thing to learn.
I'm not complaining. I like it. But, you know, sometimes, blimey.